Enough of the introspection for the time being... I mentioned I write, this excerpt is from "Hidden Morning," the bit I was writing when I was trying to decide whether I should pursue a female relationship. It was interesting to go back and read parts of it more than a year later; the more things change, the more they stay the same...
Amy switched the TV quickly over to SpongeBob SquarePants when the boys came downstairs and walked outside to clear her head and grab the morning paper. Dina was standing at her mailbox when Amy came walking up the driveway.
“Good morning, Amy,” Dina smiled as Amy reached her own mailbox. Amy smiled back at her.
“Good morning, Dina.” She reached into the mailbox and grabbed the paper, then looked back up to see Dina staring at her intently. “What’s up?”
“Are you and Kiki getting together this morning? It’s Thursday.”
“Yes, it is, and yes, we are. Dina…” Amy trailed off, not sure how to say what she needed to. Dina raised both of her eyebrows up significantly, so Amy took a deep breath and went on. “Dina, Kiki and I talked about what happened last week, and while she doesn’t regret what you did, she doesn’t want it to happen again. She and Jim are very happy with what they’ve got, and she doesn’t think that we can do what we’re doing without emotional consequences.”
“Oh? and what do you think?” Dina’s facial expression was smooth, untroubled.
“I think we can, and I want what we’ve started. But Kiki doesn’t.”
“And she can’t bring herself to tell me this herself?” Dina looked only quizzical, not hurt or even ruffled.
“Well, I think she was hoping it just wouldn’t come up again. I’m just hoping to avoid a scene.”
“A scene? What makes you think there would be a scene? Is Kiki emotionally immature? Do you think I am?”
“No, I just…” Amy wavered. “I just thought you should know.”
“Well, thank you, love, but I think I would rather hear it from her. Now, if you’d rather that I not join you two this morning, then please just come out and say so.” Dina looked at her expectantly.
Amy wavered once again. She missed Dina’s touch and wanted, no, needed to feel her again, but did not want to make her long-time friend uncomfortable. “I want you to join us. I just don’t think it would be a good idea.”
“Ever?” Dina raised an eyebrow and cocked her head to one side.
She had a point. How long could the inevitable be put off? Eventually the two of them would have to face each other, and the sooner the conflict was resolved, the better. Besides, it wasn’t really a conflict, was it? Kiki would simply tell Dina to keep her hands to herself, and that would be that.
“Never mind. Come. Please.” Amy blurted out, and Dina chuckled.
“I would love to. I hope I do.” she said with a smirk, and turned back down her driveway towards her house. Amy stood watching for a moment dumbly before she registered the little play on words, then laughed softly to herself as she went back inside.
The boys got through their morning routines and Amy trailed them down to the bus stop as usual, deep in thought. How was she going to present this to Kiki? Would Kiki be angry at this disruption of their Thursday routine? The coffee klatch on Thursday mornings used to be bigger in attendance, but it had just been the two of them for the past year.
“Hey,” Kiki greeted her cheerfully, sipping on a mug of steaming coffee. “How goes it?”
“Did you see the news this morning? This is starting to get weird, two people missing now with no clues.”
“Yeah, I agree. Weird. I don’t know what to make of it. I hope they’re okay, wherever they are.”
Amy nodded her agreement, then paused thoughtfully. She decided to go for a blunt approach and just get it out there.
“Kiki, Dina’s going to join us again this morning for coffee. She’s really looking forward to it.”
“I’ll bet she is,” Kiki returned dryly. “Do you really think it’s a good idea, given what happened last time?”
“I do. I know it’s just been us for awhile, but this thing on Thursday mornings used to be for all the women in our neighbourhood who were available at that time of the morning, and Dina seems to qualify. I think we need to talk this all out, maybe set some ground rules…”
Kiki was looking at her sceptically. “You were there and saw how it all went down. Do you think she’s going to give us a chance to talk before she just works that magic again? That stuff came out of nowhere!”
Amy found herself shrugging one shoulder as she admitted slowly, “I kind of told her how you felt about it. I think she’ll be willing to talk first.” She glanced at the children; none of them were paying any attention to the women’s conversation as they stood talking some distance away. The bus showed up just then, and all of them waved to Amy and Kiki as they climbed aboard.
Kiki turned back to Amy after the bus had moved on. “I have my reservations, but I suppose you’re right. Just don’t expect me to be all sunshine and rainbows. I’m having a bad week at work.”
“I’m sorry about that… we can talk more at coffee later. I’m sure we’ll do plenty of talking.” Amy was going to think positively about this situation.
The morning passed quickly, and before Amy knew it she was going to the front door to open it for her friends.
Both Kiki and Dina stood on the stoop, an almost palpable distance between them. As soon as the door opened, Kiki fixed her eyes on Amy’s in a significant glare that only intensified as the silence grew more awkward. Dina, for her part, looked a little too innocent as she smiled brightly at Amy while holding a covered plate in both hands.
Amy looked back and forth from one to the other for several moments, wondering what might have already taken place on the stoop, before straightening her shoulders and greeting the two women. Time to grow a set. “Well, hello!! Why don’t you come in? Coffee’s on!”
She held the door open for both as they passed her, then shut it and trailed them into the kitchen. Kiki moved to transfer the coffee into a carafe, Amy to grab mugs, while Dina went straight to the table and distributed some delectable-looking muffins between three plates. The three of them sat together at the table all on one bench, with Amy in the middle.
Amy poured the coffee for all of them and the women sipped and ate for awhile in silence before she felt compelled to comment on the muffins. “These are awesome, Dina. So moist! What’s in them?”
“It’s a chocolate applesauce,” Dina replied. “An old favourite recipe… haven’t had it in years. You’re bringing all my old bakery skills to the forefront, it seems.”
Amy chuckled, then stiffened as Dina leaned forward. “Kiki, Amy mentioned that there was something you wished talk to me about.”
Kiki stiffened now, her eyes looking sidelong at Amy. She glared at her for a time before turning her stare on Dina. “How do you mean?”
Dina continued on, not bothered in the least. “That you did not enjoy my touch.” Her hand went to Amy’s knee and squeezed, then started rubbing lazy circles over the skin of her inner thigh.
“Well, that’s not exactly right. It’s more that I don’t feel that I want to be going down that road with you. You seem very nice… I just don’t want that interfere with what I have with Jim.”
“So you don’t want to do it with me. Okay, I can accept that.” Dina’s hand moved up to Amy’s crotch and she stroked her gently there, pressing one finger insistently on the seam of her pants. Amy moaned, drawing Kiki’s attention. “Does it upset you to see me touch Amy?”
“N-no…” said Kiki, her eyes suddenly glued to the hand in Amy’s crotch. Dina sped up her movements and Amy moaned again, bucking her hips up into Dina’s hand. Kiki licked her lips.
“Amy seems to be very excited…” Dina whispered for Kiki’s benefit and suddenly her hands were everywhere, teasing and coaxing Amy’s nipples to hardness, rubbing down her front to her crotch, unbuttoning her jeans, and slipping a hand inside her panties. “Yes, she’s very excited… so wet for me…” Dina began stroking Amy’s slit, one finger sliding down towards her entrance. Amy’s hips bucked up again and she started moving rhythmically against Dina’s hand. Dina’s finger pushed inside her and began to pump in and out. She added a second finger and curled them slightly as she continued to pump her.
Amy could feel Kiki moving beside her and realized that her friend was rubbing herself roughly while watching Dina work. She impulsively leaned over and caught Kiki’s mouth in a kiss, unable to stop a moan when Dina increased her speed again. Kiki kissed her back, bringing her free hand up to cup her cheek while continuing to rub furiously at herself. Her thigh was rubbing against Amy’s as she moved her hips against her hand. Amy’s hips were still in motion too as she strained toward her release.
Dina was kissing up and down Amy’s neck with soft, open-mouthed kisses. She whispered into Amy’s skin as she nuzzled her neck. “Touch me, lover. I need you to touch me.”
Amy brought her hands up to Dina’s breasts and cupped them through her thin sweater before running her hands underneath the sweater and bra and touching her soft skin directly. She rolled Dina’s nipples between her fingers and pulled on them, causing Dina to gasp. Dina’s nipples went hard beneath her fingers, and Dina brought one hand down between her legs to rub at herself.
“Ooohhhh… sit in my lap, love. I want to feel your ass move against me while I fuck you.” Dina grabbed Amy’s hips and helped her onto her lap. Dina’s legs were spread so that the smaller woman was seated between them and Dina had full access to Amy’s crotch from behind. She slipped her hand back inside Amy’s panties and pushed two fingers back inside her, curved up to rub the g-spot as she pumped them in and out slowly. Amy rocked her hips back against Dina’s and they both moaned. Kiki’s breathing became ragged nearby.
Dina then set a strong, steady rhythm and Amy’s hips matched her thrust for thrust, giving Dina needed friction as well. They both started to moan and pant as they rocked together, causing Kiki to cry out and come as she watched them, her hips moving with abandon against her hand.
“Uuuhhhh… I’m so close…” Amy moaned as her head fell back against Dina’s ample chest.
“Me too, baby. Just… oohhhh… touch your breasts for me.” Dina’s free hand dug into Amy’s hip, guiding her movements.
Amy did as she was asked and the added stimulation sent her over the edge as Dina continued to pump her. “Oohhh… aahhh… I’m coming! Dina!” She rode out her orgasm and felt Dina buck her hips once behind her and then stiffen and groan as she came as well.
All three women were gasping for breath and they slumped back against the padded bench. Kiki looked a little self-conscious as her eyes met Dina’s over Amy’s head.
Dina smiled at her and arched an eyebrow in question. “So have we reached a satisfactory… understanding, Kiki?”
Kiki gulped and nodded. “Yes. Yes, I think we have.”
“How’s work been this week for you two?” Dina quipped as she helped Amy off her lap and straightened her clothing. “It’s been a tough week at the hospital.”
Kiki stared at her in disbelief for a moment before answering. “It’s been a tough week for me as well.”
“Do you want to talk about it?” The three women lapsed into small talk as they finished their coffee and pastries as if that’s all they’d been doing here in this kitchen. The pink elephant between them appeared to have been settled.
